June 18th, 2008

Steps

Next week my shrink is going to start stepping me down from three Xanax a day to two.

Apparently this will be a slow process with a fair amount of time doing two and a half, then two and a quarter and so on.

The plus side is that she's doing it because she thinks I'm making a lot of progress. She pointed out that a year ago the black mood that hit me last week would have lasted for several weeks instead of three days.

The downside is, quite frankly, I'm scared to death of it. Everyone tells me I'm getting much, much better, but inside I wonder if I really am, or if I'm just getting better at the facade.

Still, this is a fear that I think I have to confront. I don't want to be on medication for the rest of my life and I trust my shrink implicitly.

Tuesday Night

Ed Ward is back in town and we met up for drinks last night.

Blonde Lesbian, the American Graphic Design Couple, The Cute Director of the Franco American Center, Nick The Greek, Hippy IT Boy, The Iceman, The Non Jewish Carpenter and a few random girls also turned up.

We ended up having to push four tables together.

Ed's looking for an apartment in Montpellier, so if anyone has any leads please pass them on. He wants about 60 square meters for 650 euros or less.

We all got pretty sloshed out on the terrace and all in all it was a good night.