Reading a pretty girl's entry about Xanax made me realize just how powerful addiction is.
Even though it's been roughly four years since I had a Xanax just reading her post made me remember exactly how it feels and made me really, really want a Xanax.
I need an ad written up for a weird and unusual eBay auction. I found a stick the creek near my home the other day that has been worked over by a beaver. It has been cleaned free of bark save about three inches on one end. I thought that perhaps this could be promoted as something extra ultra unique. something that no one else has or will likely ever have.
I thought I could mount on a wall plaque and doll it up a bit to make it something that could be shown off.
I thought someone that has a way with words could really put a nice piece together.
"Dance with the devil," the old expression goes, "and the devil don't change. The devil changes you."
I was thinking about this this week because of a recent Dan Savage article on cuckolding. Since then I've searched around for other people who have fetishes but try to live "normal" lives at the same time.
My beef, in general, is that in any sexual or fetish based community 90 percent of the people are sane and take things to reasonable levels, but there is always a very vocal 10 percent that seem to just take it down to the lowest level possible. And, what's really scary, is that you know they started out just like me, but then like never saw the line.
In the cuckold community these people are represented by dudes who for whatever reason become obsessed with the idea that their wives or long term partners need to "fuck nigger cock."
This kills my hard on so fucking much, not to mention that it is patently offensive. For me, and for 90 percent of people like me, all we want is for our lovers to have romantic affairs every so often.
That's way different from guys who post "Need Mandingo for my bitch" or "Want Nigger Cock for my wife."
It makes me think that I'm going to have to eventually give up the cuckold communities the same way I gave up communities for Big Beautiful Women several years ago.
It's no secret that I like big girls and so when I found communities dedicated to that I was upbeat and happy. But once again I was pushed away by the 10 percent who take it too far. In that case it was the weirdo boys who, I shit you not, wanted to find women they could "feed" until they got to the point that the ladies could not leave the house.
I wonder if this is how mainstream gay men must react to serious flamers who slut out in parks or how mainstream lesbians must cringe when they see girls with 17 piercings and shaved heads with strap ons under their Levis.
Not to get off on a rant....